TRANsition

12/21/09
3:21 PM

I've begun to realize that pretty much every TRAN entry so far has been written in the afternoon...I guess it's because my mornings are pretty busy. Anywho...so I'm down to half a pill. I'm pretty sure I'll end up just throwing it away because seriously, only 100 mg pill is barely enough spiro...why in god's name would I take just half of a friggin pill?? I went out last night ''dressed" for the first time since I've been working this job, and let me tell you...it was A-MUTHA-FRIGGIN-MAZING!! Nights like last night make me happy because I feel like my real self [even if only for a few hours] but at the same time make me so damn sad because I know that starting tomorrow, it will become even more difficult.

GOD I JUST NEED TO FIND $230

Part of me just wants to ask someone because I know that if I had a friend in my situation I'd do all I could...but seriously, who the H am i going to ask for money?? I don't know what I'm going to do.