TRANsition

12/22/09
1:03 PM

Well, I got my journal out befeore noon today but then Liam needed some attention [ umm helloooo. did you forget you were a nanny??] and he's only just now really into his nap. Anyway...day number one with no meds. It's a strange thing, because at the moment I am counseling a freind of mine through his trasition into her...and yet, here I am feeling like I'm right back at my own beginning [pardon the gross emocity of that statement..."now presenting the newest single from My Own Beginning!!"...eww]

My mom asked me today if I wanted her to pay for a stereo and it's installation into my car...that's like a minimum of $100 for the stereo not including installation. Then you have to factor in the cost of speakers...because my car doesn't have them...i know...which is like another $50-100. This is the same woman who refuses to help me pay for hormones...I can't afford the one thing in life I really want/need which leads to extreme emotional duress and meanwhile, my goddamn mother wants to make sure i can listen to music while I'm driving. There are no words.

2:26 PM

I am still decidedly irritated. I calmed down enough to realize that she doesn't get it and that isn't her fault and I shouldn't be upset that she's trying to do something nice. I cannot believe my life is crashing like this...and enough with the emo shit Laet!! Only positivity from here on out.